I am what i am.
I try to dream
but it is so hard.
I am not sure
what he wants from me.
I should imagine him
and i should imagine
me as a boy.
It is very hard.
I want him so
bad,i have not
stalked him at all.
This is a detox
from him.
I just want him so
bad.Dont want to
tell anybody who he is.
I just wanna keep it secret.
I know i should not blog
about it ,but i have an
obsession.I just have to
do it.

I wont write at home the oldfashioned way.I t is so amazing that i dint get caught.
I am probably hungry for publicity,thats why i do write ablog.I just can not help
myself.I want to be famous,somehow i will be.I have never been eager to be
public.I do not understand myself.I have 10 emailaccounts,gmail 6,yahoo 2,
elisa 1,wippies 2.I have decided not to use all of them,i wish it would be possible
to delete them.I am so stupid.I wont say tha t again,if i just remember that till the next day.
I probaply wont remember.

Joo.I took kuvia from the pakettiauto which we teipattiin.
It is so nice to teipata.Then minä tried to laittaa pictures
tietokoneeseen.Computer says NO.I dont understand
why.Then i put them on the home computer.What the hell.
You guys are always messing with me.

I am just so overwhelmed.
I am doing so much staff.
I just can help myself.
I want so much more.
I cant get enough.
I want,i want ,i want it.
I cant get enough of it.
I am so addicted.
It is for me.
How can i keep it?
Will this ever be real?
Will i ever see him or her?
I want him or her so much.
I am so bad.
I have to...
I dont know.
That i know ,this
is so much fun.
I hope somebody reads this.
I am trying to keep anonymous...
not sure if i wrote that rite.