I dont know if it says my name when you
open the page.You cant find a blog which
is named like that.Well you know it doesnt
say anything.Well,if it will be public it will
I did it to revenge to my DH.
I know I am not a nice person.But he didnt
give me divorse when I wanted to.And that
is why I am pissed at him.Also I didnt like
the way he teated me when I was in psychosis.
He beat me,not in the face ,because it would
have been noticed.So thats why I pay back to
him.

Hi,dear
I just came from the doctor.
It was 3 o´clock,when I got
to the pharmacy.
I bought Lamictal,
I suggested it to the doctor.
He must be a bad doctor.
I asked him sleeping pills,
he asked me "is 30 enough"
I said,"would you please
descibe me 100 tablets.
He didnt.I was oh well.
Lamictal was 11.20 E.
Then I went back to the
place and he was leaving
to get car washed.He
traded some work to
get the washing up.
Great deal.It is a big
car.I did some cleaning.
Put some papers to a folder.
That felt good.

I am really going to hell.I do things i am not supposed to do.
I was on the computer,which is grandmamas work computer.
I have been good I dont watch anything with mts.
I get so jealous.I am so jealous for all the peole who see him.
Worst if they get to touch them,I am not alesbian.I see people
I see men i think of sex,i see women i dont think of sex.
Of course there are not people dressing up like whores.
Sexy clothes are very sexy,they turn me on.

I am what i am.
I try to dream
but it is so hard.
I am not sure
what he wants from me.
I should imagine him
and i should imagine
me as a boy.
It is very hard.
I want him so
bad,i have not
stalked him at all.
This is a detox
from him.
I just want him so
bad.Dont want to
tell anybody who he is.
I just wanna keep it secret.
I know i should not blog
about it ,but i have an
obsession.I just have to
do it.

I wont write at home the oldfashioned way.I t is so amazing that i dint get caught.
I am probably hungry for publicity,thats why i do write ablog.I just can not help
myself.I want to be famous,somehow i will be.I have never been eager to be
public.I do not understand myself.I have 10 emailaccounts,gmail 6,yahoo 2,
elisa 1,wippies 2.I have decided not to use all of them,i wish it would be possible
to delete them.I am so stupid.I wont say tha t again,if i just remember that till the next day.
I probaply wont remember.

Joo.I took kuvia from the pakettiauto which we teipattiin.
It is so nice to teipata.Then minä tried to laittaa pictures
tietokoneeseen.Computer says NO.I dont understand
why.Then i put them on the home computer.What the hell.
You guys are always messing with me.

I am just so overwhelmed.
I am doing so much staff.
I just can help myself.
I want so much more.
I cant get enough.
I want,i want ,i want it.
I cant get enough of it.
I am so addicted.
It is for me.
How can i keep it?
Will this ever be real?
Will i ever see him or her?
I want him or her so much.
I am so bad.
I have to...
I dont know.
That i know ,this
is so much fun.
I hope somebody reads this.
I am trying to keep anonymous...
not sure if i wrote that rite.